LIFE... it's kind of hard

Why is it that I always feel inspired to post when I'm down in the dumps? My posterity is going to think I was the most depressing person in the entire world. In reality do I have anything to truly be down about? No. I have a husband that is deeply in love with me and supports me and only wants me to be happy, I have friends that are way better then your friends and I have a family that somehow is perfect for me, not to mention I have the gospel in my life, which in reality saves me daily. But here I am going through a rough path and for some reason letting the cyber world read about it( in reality I think four people ready my blog, so... sorry about the exaggeration.) Yesterday I quite my job, I was shocked that I had the guts to do it. I have been working as an assistant for almost 6 months, and in general the job was pretty great, they gave me an iphone and paid my phone bill, gave my a brand new mac laptop and the pay was pretty good, I should have been happy, right? Well I wasn't, I tried to pretend I was happy, for those of you that know me, you know that this is my fourth job in a year and I hate that I can't find where I belong. Anyway, I wasn't happy, my boss was extremely hard on me and my hours ranged from about 50-60 hours a week, it seemed I could rarely do anything right in her eyes and it was starting to weigh on my heavily. I found myself having minor anxiety attacks or panic attacks, afraid that I had "messed up" again. I finally reached a breaking point, yesterday was my two year anniversary, Cam and I had plans to go up to a cabin and relax for the night, I was excited to spend time with him. Right before we left I checked my work email (bad idea) I found an email from my boss informing me about all the mistakes I had made and that they were just down right unacceptable. Now this story is getting long, but if I told you what I did that was so "unacceptable" you would probably laugh. Well, I drove up to my place of work gave her my cell phone, my keys, and my laptop and told her I couldn't work for her anymore. my hands were shaking I was so nervous/angry I have never quite a job without giving a two week notice and making sure I left on good terms, but I knew it wasn't going to end good this time. So here I am now jobless, it's a really weird feeling, but I know what I did was right. I hope I can find where I am supposed to be and it's hard being almost 27 and still trying to figure it out but I know I have to depend on the Lords help and I feel that maybe that is way I'm going through this right now. Everything somehow always works out and I just pray I can take this experience and learn from it.

My Ladies

I was inspired my one of my ladies, Jade, to blog about all my ladies. I have been friends with these amazing women for a long time. They have carried me though the hard times, made me laugh so hard that I pee a little, and continually inspire and motivate me to be better. After I spend time with them I always go to bed thinking how lucky I am to have them in my life.

As my ladies know, I LOVE strolling down memory lane, so I'm going to take this time and write some of my favorite memories down so I can always have them

(and so other people can know how cool we are)

The Mother Ship, my senior year in high school I think I spent everyday of my christmas break at Emily's house, even Christmas eve and Christmas day, hence the mother ship. I Cherish the time I spent at the Lott house. Going to dances together. Sitting next to the Garbage can at Lunch. Not going to seminary opps.

Living at Parkway Crossing with my ladies was amazing, I learned so much and I have NEVER laughed so hard, hours and hours of The O.C. A few random E.R. trips, an awesome trip to Lake Powell, hanging out at the Olive Garden, jumping in the pool with our clothes on, the farewell party, one too many trips to ihop, and hundreds and hundreds of late night talks

Kellee, Lara, Emily, Jaclyn, and Jade you are AMAZING. I love you girls, and I can't wait for the new memories. I know it doesn't get more cheesy then this but I think it's important to let the people in your life know how much they are loved and appreciated.

Going Forward!!!

I didn't want to post this until everything was final and the ink was dry but Cam and I are just one step away to getting our new house!! We have been approved for the loan, the inspection is over and now we just need to get the appraisal finished and we will be moving in two weeks!!!.

For those of you that have gone through buying a house you can understand the emotional stress that is involved. This is the fourth house we have put on offer on and the second one that we have been under contract with. The first two houses, we were out bid. The third house, which was SO SO cute turned out to once have been a meth house and I just couldn't move forward knowing what kind of evil stuff had happened under that roof.

This house, the fourth house, was found by my very good friend Jade on KSL.com (love that site) and everything has really been falling into place. I just hope it all continues to work out, because if it doesn't Cam and I will have no place to live and I will cry ;)

Okay I really want to post pictures but my computer is being STUPID so tune in next time and I will have pics for you!

I'm back... for now

Okay, so it has been over a year, 13 months to be exact, and I'm going to try this whole blogging thing again. As of right now I don't really have much to blog about, Christmas was fun, New Years was good, life is moving forward.

Cam and I are house hunting right now, we have to be out of the house we are renting by March which means we don't have a lot of time. We put an offer on a house on Saturday, this is the third offer we have put on a house, we will find out tomorrow at 5:00, I really hope this works out.

2010 was a pretty good year for Cam and I and I'm

thinking that 2011 is going to be even better.

(one of my new years resolutions is to be more positive, the above picture is me being positive!! he he).